For a while now, we have been working on our “audition pieces” in acting class. I was working on “I Can Hear the Bells” from Hairspray. This is a song sung by Tracy Turnblad about her cliche crush on Link Larkin. This song was a challenge for me as far as acting because singing is a stronger skill for me. I had to be an annoyingly happy girl who fantasizes her whole life relationship with this guy who she fell in love with strictly for looks. I find this concept to be a foolish one so it was difficult for me to pretend I actually cared about this made up guy I barely knew.
If I had to grade my performance, I would give myself a B, but mainly because I feel like my singing wasn’t that great and neither was my acting. I think my acting was unbelievable because I failed to portray the insanity that Tracy Turnblad did in “Hairspray.” I wish my acting would have been better. I guess this is an off week for me. I also messed up the words to the song and even though I kept going, it still was a mess up and that’s not something that can just be okay only because I played it off. I feel like this was one of my worst performances I’ve done yet in this class.
My goals and challenges for myself in this song were to perfectly execute the singing, words, and acting. I failed at all three so I did not achieve any of them. The singing did not sound the way I wanted it to which frustrates me. The acting was not at the level I wanted it to be. This is in the sense that I made people believe I was singing and meaning every word of that song and I did not believe every word while I was watching the video which also disappoints me. Also the fact that I could not remember all of the words to one song makes it just not as impactful. I might be being too hard on myself, but this is just how I sincerely feel.
What I need to work on are those three things I failed at during my performance. I need to work on learning words a bit better and I will do that by creating a technique I have not yet thought of. In order to improve my singing I will just do more vocal warm ups and just keep trying to get a stronger and clearer sounding voice so I do not end up sounding bad. I also will work on my acting, but I also have not thought of how yet. This project was probably my worst in this class and I’m not sure if it is just an off week or I am just not as good as I thought I was, but I do not feel confident about this piece at all and slightly wish I had never done it.


